I’m Awake, Really I am

If you’ve been keeping up with my blog, I commend you. It hit me today, it has been almost a complete year, since I got on here and typed away. I guess fear has really held me back in a sense. You’re probably thinking, “What? Fear? Huh?” I’ll let you in a secret, since the season of life changed a few years ago, this nagging feeling of wanting others approval has been occurring. I know, I know it sounds silly, but it is the truth. Every time I wanted to jump onto here and say a little something, I couldn’t get my head around what people thought of it. It does seem rather silly, all in all it is the truth though.

 

It’s been a year. A whole year. SO much has changed, I have changed, my family has changed, the seasons have changed, and dozens upon dozens of sun rises and sun sets have occurred. There is no more snow in our neck of the woods, which I am seriously rejoicing about! It is 9:30 at night and the sun is just starting to set for the night. Yes, I am awake (anyone who knows me, knows I am in bed by this time, since my humans like to be up bright and early, 5am anyone?)

 

As I sit here I realize that silly nagging fear seems to be diminishing the more words I type along. Maybe, just maybe it is because at 9:15 at night, as I am brushing my teething I had this tug to jump onto the computer, and say my blog is officially up again, and my fingers are clicking away… Because of that I was obedient, and maybe just maybe The Lord lifted that fear? It amazes me every time I am obedient to Him, even when I don’t want to be, the blessings that come from it. They aren’t always exactly the way I see fit though, which from time to time I need to remind myself my ways are not His ways.

 

Well here’s to being back on the click clack typing arena again.

 

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Blessings as always from my family to yours,

Rebecca

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